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Writer's Block: Tricky Questions

2009-01-14T12:27:02Z

What is your first reaction when someone says "I need to talk to you"?

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either "sure" or "why??! what happened??" depending on the tone in which the question is asked

lamp post

2009-01-04T05:14:38Z

outside, looking in
intensity trumps history
lamp post, the third wheel

Spaceless

2008-09-28T16:50:44Z

Space. My space. Your space.
His space. Her space. Our space
We go outter space.

Space to simply be.
For thoughts to go wild and free.
Worst version of me.

Spatially challenged.
How much space is too much space?
Space overrated.

Weigh my time and space.
Time too little, space too much
Bridge the gap with me.

Space to be free
or freedom from spacelessness.
Limits in our heads.

Lets find ways to keep
moving beyond time and space.
Where happiness waits.

crypticry @ 2008-08-22T00:26:00

2008-08-21T16:28:07Z

I am tired of filling up online application forms and crafting cover letters. This process gives me a headache.

Are Memes so called because they're all about Me?

2008-07-22T05:48:35Z

+ People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

+ Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. How has LJ changed your life?
Er...I don't think it has. If we're talking about blogging in general, then yes, I've met quite a few interesting people through blogging...but I don't blog enough for any strong attachments to form. As far as online things go, Deviantart has probably changed my life a wee bit, by exposing me to all the wonderousness of the world.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Like mango_rain, I also am online right until I leap into bed. Not a good thing. I don't pray before bed anymore. I also sometimes get lazy to brush my teeth. I need to fix that. I also generally pee before I sleep....I can't sleep with that slight pee sensation so I force myself to empty my bladder of every last drop.

3. What are you going to have for dinner tonight?
I don't know, haven't discussed it with my mother yet. But I know I'm having dumpling soup for lunch.

4. What is the one place you would like to visit before you die?
Some place with an endless field of sunflowers that come up to my waist....I want to be able to frolic in such a field.

5. Introvert? Extrovert?
A bit of both, leaning towards extrovert. But as much as I need my interaction with people, I also need my down time and my own space to think and reflect. My family often has to deal with the more introverted side of me because I expend so much of my social energy outside of the home with friends that by the time I get home all I want to do is hole myself up in my room.

6. What do you do in your free time?
Jobhunt, faff about on the guitar, look at facebook photos, help my mother with household chores....I've been leading a very uneventful life.

7. Do you trust easily?
I give people the benefit of the doubt. I'm more trusting than I should be.Thankfully I haven't been burnt yet.

8. Identify something about yourself you are not so happy with?
My inability to accept criticism graciously. My inability to commit wholeheartedly to anything that I set out to do. And I can identify with vaid's lack of a 'dream big' thing....my life lacks a constant passion and drive.

9. Is there anything or anyone that has made you unhappy these days?
Er, the negative thoughts in my head...self deprecation... I am losing my faith. I want more control.

Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel

10. What is your worst quality?
Hmmmmmmm refer to question 8...pretty much the same thing.

11. Is being tagged fun?
Bah....forces me to write. I wouldn't be updating my LJ otherwise.

12. What do you like about yourself?
My ability to empathize with most people and situations.

13. If you could be anyone for one day, who would you be?
Oprah, just after she lost weight.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A down to earth girl who knows how to appreciate the small joys of life.

15. What are you happy about right now?
Hum....really speaking...nothing

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
I've thought about this...I used to think that a boy and a girl would be enough. But then I see families where siblings get along so well and have such great affection for each other, and I think to myself, I want that too.

17. Are you doing what you thought you'd be doing at this point in your life?
I never think too far ahead. I never really thought about life after graduation. Just taking it as it comes.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I don't think it's possible to fall in love with 2 people simultaneously. If one is love then the other is just extreme affection.

19. What is your favourite smell ever?
Hmmm I quite like the smell of freshly washed hair. Baking....coffee.....I can tell you what smell I don't like....freshly cut grass...or the smell of the ground after rain.

20. What was the last thing you spent money on?
I cycled to the market and bought bread, tofu, taugay(bean sprouts), fresh yellow mee and fresh soya bean milk. The price of tofu in the market behind my home is ridiculous...60 cents a square! It's only 30cents elsewhere!

Hmmm in terms of big ticket items...haven't bought anything particularly expensive lately.... a pair of peep-toe shoes...do those count.

I tag imaginary_roots, fivesandsevens, ashi_the_artist, mega_joan

Sociology, the grandfather of all social science!

2008-06-11T06:21:07Z

Haha, I disagree that sociology is applied psychology! Both have different units of analysis!!
And if you want to go one down, Human Geography is just applied Sociology!! (Haha, sorry vaid, even you have to agree with me on this one!) Also, physicists think way too highly of themselves...I don't know about mathematicians, they don't really blow their own trumpets, but pysicians sure love to brag and boast! Which reminds me, I must watch the remaining episodes of Big Bang Theory.

The 9 Most Racist Disney Characters

2008-05-29T07:13:44Z

Haha the sociologist/cultural study-er in me is amused by the manner in which racial/ethnic stereotypes are infused in popular culture.

http://www.cracked.com/article_15833_9-most-racist-disney-characters.html

Worth a read...if only for a trip down memory lane. Or for you Disney-haters...another strike against Disney.

Haha "You could pretty much pause this video at any second and use it as evidence in your hate-crime lawsuit against Disney."

P.S. Isn't it amusing how I write my entries as though I've got a large readership...*waves to my approximate 5 readers*

word bank

2008-05-17T02:34:56Z

litany, cadence, acquiesce, obeisance, ricocheting, cerulean, maelstrom, vociferous, rancour, ubiquitous, gauche, cognizance, bereft, expedience, edifice, decimated, purloined, caprice, inchoate, deify, belligerent, tableau, fructifying, reconnaissance, languorous, precocious, feints, invective, reticent, verdant, augured, prosaic, prescience, convalescent, stoic, rectitude, voluble, bowdlerized, impervious, incandescent, clemency, malapropisms, redolent, insouciance, propinquity, pulchritudinous, sinuous, eponymous, suffused, laterite, amorphous, aestrivation, pared, fiefdom, purloined, harbinger, cauterized, terrenity, inured, effulgent, singed, unctuous, ghoulish, punumbral, ignominy, pernicious, incipient, desultory, invidious, certitude, gossamer, privation, rivulets, posterity, pugnaciously, rescind, panache, aberration, cantankerous, iridescent, garrulous, languid, Rumpelstiltskin, scarlet pimpernel, nemesis, perspicacious, astute, collude, recondite, redress, augmentation, verdant, laconic, abject, ebullience, nascent, recalcitrant, penury, reticence, timorous, munificence, olfactory, corpulence, abrogated, bigotry, pharisaic, lucidity

unstoppable part two

2008-05-13T16:12:46Z

I really need all the encouragement I can get now.
Thank you to everyone helping me keep my spirits up! I love you all!

From P
"Ur gg to lose weight and look like a Rockstar. Trust me ;) Xoxo"

From SH

Me:anyway yeah im dead serious, need to get this done yo, twill make people around me happy so why not eh
SH: its not about ppl around u, it's about u, i think weight is one of those things.
well in ur case...ur too smart to let it do the image thing. in ur case...it's more like a preferred option...so you can "wear that dress" or be "physically fit" as opposed to some uber self esteem issue. so it's all good.
Me: yeah but sometimes I feel like I need to berate myself. it's only when you're down and out when you feel the need to prove yourself to the world.
SH: perhaps. but again..i think the weight loss in ur case is different. u're really fun. im positive ur smart. uve got a nice face. get a nice body and u'll be unstopable. its like topping up. hehehe.
Me: why are you being nice yo, don't, i feel bad.
SH: im not. im keeping it real. cuz i know i can.

From K
Gyms and running tracks
Magic machines of weight loss
Feel good inventions

From V
Constant reminding not to overexert and to be sensible and pace myself.

From S
Not sharing her unhealthy food and chiding me for touching anything unhealthy.

From C
General chit chat about how I'm going about doing things.

From R
Tips and dos and donts

From H
Well...mostly keeping it real too.

"unstoppable"

2008-05-10T00:39:50Z

His grace and mercy know no bound, seriously.
I am just so amazed and overwhelmed by the kindness and the goodness that has surrounded me.

Yesterday's post finalexamever celebration was chilled out and fun, just the way I like it! The company was beyond awesome. Seeing J1 after ages...she's brilliant and has the same grace about her that I loved from Day 1. And when I think of the problems we had 5 years ago and how we've grown as people since then, it makes me proud and hopeful more than anything else.

I came home to a happy sms. And I couldn't sleep in general from the post party buzz so I went online and had a brilliant conversation with an encouraging person who just got me (and my issue) spot on, it was...wow...people like this exist? And I go to bed, contented, with a smile on my face, and full of this surging zest for life and to top things off, my eyes open automatically at 8 am despite having only slept at 4ish. I mean, I think too myself, really, how much better can it get? And then I see that I got another nice sms!!

Wow. (HAHA this reminds me of the book titled 'Wowability' in the co-cop yesterday when we went to try on our graduation robes...everyone else rolled their eyes at me and made me move on, but in true me fashion, I was amused. My life really does have a wowability factor to it right now!)

I hope Seva Day goes brilliantly. *Prays*

P.S. My 9th postcard showed up in the mail from Kyoto!! Thank you ashigaru!!

Adele - Chasing Pavements

2008-05-06T07:16:42Z

I don't really like the song, but I like the video. Watch the pavement dance sequence...and the shadow play towards the end especially...dancing with shadows...I see so many spiritual parallels....where there is light, there will always be your shadow, that silent presence following you all the time, never forsaking you. So Let there be Light and we shall never be alone.

K, I just realied that this is thematically similar to your recent haiku entry (:

Also, I think that the video would go very well with this instrumental song I've been listening to. Funnily enough, it's OST from a movie titled BAADASSSSS! Haha!!
To listen to the instrumental, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOJ1sdhQjOI
Ignore the weird anime.

I can fly but I want his wings

2008-05-04T06:56:52Z

I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings

Bless the day he came to be
Angels wings carried him to me
Heavenly
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings

Yesterday something unprecedented happened. It didn't happen in the context that you would expect it to, but it was interesting nevertheless.

Hope and Gratitude

2008-05-01T04:07:39Z

I write most of my LJ entries while I'm in the shower. Nothing like scalding hot water beating down on my back to force me into self-reflection mode. Come to think of it, I do most of my thinking in the shower...Is that...weird? All you globalization freaks would have a hernia for sure though, with the amount of water I waste...I don't even turn off the tap while soaping up. It's the one thing I refuse to do.

So I'm standing there...I write one version in my head. The most beautiful words come to me and I make mental notes to remember them. But when I get to the computer I'm like....bah...whatever. I lose inspiration. All the positive energy and the optimism just evaporates with the steam.

I had something in my head along the lines of

I feel so much hope and gratitude and I am hopeful and grateful for this feeling.

There's so much I've learnt in my 4 years in uni. I've grown through distance and separation, I've grown through difference and diversity, I've grown through conflict and resolution, I've grown through conflict and acceptance, I've grown through tears of confusion, tears of pain, tears of selfpity, tears of laughter, tears of noreason, I've grown through jest and humour, I've grown through letting go, I've grown through the realization that the people on my msn needed me and I needed them and that beyond that there's no need to be friends, or to pretend to be friends, or to feel bad about the friends I never made and the relationships I only maintained for convenience and circumstance. I've grown through sharing and revealing a lot of myself to the people I think matter. I've grown through the hard lesson that physical violence is not the answer and that for many people, a new day doesn't erase past mistakes. I've grown through disappointment from watching my ideals crumble, through bitterness and envy and anger and resentment. I've grown through my awareness that simple things like punctuality and good sleeping habits matter and are the first signs of steadfast discipline. I've grown through the understanding that academic As don't mean that I've passed the exam of life. And I've grown out of the cover of school. This safe haven. My excuse for putting off everything I should have been doing while studying. In many ways I feel like I've been living my life, that school has taught me lessons in life. And in other ways, V was right, It feels like life is only just beginning and we're waiting for it to happen. That school was something we needed to get over and done with, to get out of the way before life really begins. And then we wonder how to reconcile that with those were the best days of my life

And no, this isn't me emo-ing out. I'm excited for everything that could happen. And if I focus, I know I'll get what I want.

p.s. I tried to lj-cut this but the stupid code isn't working!!!

Matrix

2008-04-27T04:54:54Z

cloak of magnificence

2008-04-22T11:09:13Z

Some leopards never change their spots.
If you watch closely enough, these spots, these little dark patches, are surfaced with sharp needles invisible from afar.
And anyone who unwittingly tries to sweep their hands across this apparent cloak of magnificence can only recoil in anguish.
For nobody touches the heart of a leopard that never changes its spots.

Crypticry Hall of Strange

2008-04-21T14:36:59Z

Ack! Typo with "distrubing"....now that's truly disturbing.

With you and me it just is.

2008-04-19T17:37:39Z

Who? What? When? Where? Why?
With you and me it just is.
Nothing else matters.

For the one person who has been a rock solid pillar of strength for me to lean on.
You know who you are. Between you and me, we've got the 'where' and the 'who' covered. Life will answer the rest. Just give it time.

Of our own device

2008-04-18T14:32:11Z

If I had the power to I would...

1) Make a device for collecting your chewed up food in your throat so that you can fulfil your taste cravings while not ingesting anything.

2) Make a device connecting my brain to my computer so that I can "think" out what I'd like to type. This machine must also be able to sift out distracted thoughts from main ones and hence must be able to follow a logic that I set.

Why does this feel like Harry Potter.

Breaking the curse of the broken.

2008-04-17T04:08:37Z

Curse of the broken

watch, as time comes to a still.
I am left behind.

Rush to synchcronize.
Is the purpose of my life
Just to fill up time.

When will I walk with
eternity by my side,

when will the curse break.